At least I still have you

I'm afraid there's not enough time, I want to hold you
Until your wrinkles have traces of the years
Until I'm sure you're real, until I lose my strength
For you, I do

Even can't move at all, the only thing I want is to look at you
Until your hairs have traces of the snow
Until my vision becomes blurred, until I can't breathe
Let us be the light and shadow following each other

If I could give up the whole world
At least I still have you, deserving me to cherish you
And having you here is a miracle of life
Perhaps I could forget the whole world
I'm just not willing to lose your news
The mole in your palm, I always remember where it is

I'm afraid there's not enough time, I want to hold you
Until your hairs have traces of the snow
Until my vision becomes blurred, until I can't breathe
Let us be the light and shadow following each other

If I could give up the whole world
At least I still have you, deserving me to cherish you
And having you here is a miracle of life
Perhaps I could forget the whole world
I'm just not willing to lose your news
The mole in your palm, I always remember where it is

It's not easy for us, we can not help and have no choices
I'm afraid that time is too fast to see you carefully
I'm afraid that time is too slow to lose you every day and night
Wishing that we'll grow old in one night, and never be apart

If I could give up the whole world
At least I still have you, deserving me to cherish you
And having you here is a miracle of life
Perhaps I could forget the whole world
I'm just not willing to lose your news
The mole in your palm, I always remember where it is

There
Just there

Some Where Out There

They must say we are two love fools. When I watched Beauty and the Beast, then I suddenly
thought this song, and it's quite suit for us. Even we are apart now, but we know we love
each other. Baby, when you feel alone, please remember someone is singing for you and
loving you in the same big sky.



Somewhere Out There

written by James Horner, Barry Mann, Cynthia Weil

Somewhere out there beneath the pale moonlight
Someone's thinking of me and loving me tonight

Somewhere out there someone's saying a prayer
That we'll find one another in that big somewhere out there

And even though I know how very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star

And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there if love can see us through
Then we'll be together somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true

And even though I know how very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star

And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there if love can see us through
Then we'll be together somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true

[Miss Saigon] Sun and Moon

Miss Saigon: Sun and Moon. I love the melody and lyrics for that moment.Wish you will like it

Sun and Moon
[KIM]
You are sunlight and I moon
Joined by the gods of fortune
Midnight and high noon
Sharing the sky
We have been blessed, you and I

[CHRIS]
You are here like a mystery
I'm from a world that's so different
From all that you are
How in the light of one night
Did we come so far?

[KIM]
Outside day starts to dawn

[CHRIS]
Your moon still floats on high

[KIM]
The birds awake

[CHRIS]
The stars shine too

[KIM]
My hands still shake

[CHRIS]
I reach for you

[BOTH]
And we meet in the sky!

[KIM]
You are sunlight and I moon
Joined here
Bright'ning the sky
With the flame
Of love

[BOTH]
Made of
Sunlight
Moonlight

[KIM]
Tomorrow will be the full moon
I can bring friends to bless our room
With paper unicorns and perfume
If you want me to

[CHRIS]
Unicorns? sure. . .

Labor of Love

Thomas Beatie gives The Advocate a first-person account of how it feels to be pregnant and carrying a child for his wife and himself.

Thomas Beatie

From The Advocate March 26, 2008

To our neighbors, my wife, Nancy, and I don’t appear in the least unusual. To those in the quiet Oregon community where we live, we are viewed just as we are -- a happy couple deeply in love. Our desire to work hard, buy our first home, and start a family was nothing out of the ordinary. That is, until we decided that I would carry our child.

I am transgender, legally male, and legally married to Nancy. Unlike those in same-sex marriages, domestic partnerships, or civil unions, Nancy and I are afforded the more than 1,100 federal rights of marriage. Sterilization is not a requirement for sex reassignment, so I decided to have chest reconstruction and testosterone therapy but kept my reproductive rights. Wanting to have a biological child is neither a male nor female desire, but a human desire.

Ten years ago, when Nancy and I became a couple, the idea of us having a child was more dream than plan. I always wanted to have children. However, due to severe endometriosis 20 years ago, Nancy had to undergo a hysterectomy and is unable to carry a child. But after the success of our custom screen-printing business and a move from Hawaii to the Pacific Northwest two years ago, the timing finally seemed right. I stopped taking my bimonthly testosterone injections. It had been roughly eight years since I had my last menstrual cycle, so this wasn’t a decision that I took lightly. My body regulated itself after about four months, and I didn’t have to take any exogenous estrogen, progesterone, or fertility drugs to aid my pregnancy.

Our situation sparks legal, political, and social unknowns. We have only begun experiencing opposition from people who are upset by our situation. Doctors have discriminated against us, turning us away due to their religious beliefs. Health care professionals have refused to call me by a male pronoun or recognize Nancy as my wife. Receptionists have laughed at us. Friends and family have been unsupportive; most of Nancy’s family doesn’t even know I’m transgender.

This whole process, from trying to get pregnant to being pregnant, has been a challenge for us. The first doctor we approached was a reproductive endocrinologist. He was shocked by our situation and told me to shave my facial hair. After a $300 consultation, he reluctantly performed my initial checkups. He then required us to see the clinic’s psychologist to see if we were fit to bring a child into this world and consulted with the ethics board of his hospital. A few months and a couple thousand dollars later, he told us that he would no longer treat us, saying he and his staff felt uncomfortable working with “someone like me.”

In total, nine different doctors have been involved. This is why it took over one year to get access to a cryogenic sperm bank to purchase anonymous donor vials, and why Nancy and I eventually resorted to home insemination.

When I finally got pregnant for the first time, I ended up having an ectopic pregnancy with triplets. It was a life-threatening event that required surgical intervention, resulting in the loss of all embryos and my right fallopian tube. When my brother found out about my loss, he said, “It’s a good thing that happened. Who knows what kind of monster it would have been.”

On successfully getting pregnant a second time, we are proud to announce that this pregnancy is free of complications and our baby girl has a clean bill of health. We are happily awaiting her birth, with an estimated due date of July 3, 2008.

How does it feel to be a pregnant man? Incredible. Despite the fact that my belly is growing with a new life inside me, I am stable and confident being the man that I am. In a technical sense I see myself as my own surrogate, though my gender identity as male is constant. To Nancy, I am her husband carrying our child -- I am so lucky to have such a loving, supportive wife. I will be my daughter’s father, and Nancy will be her mother. We will be a family.

Outside the local medical community, people don’t know I’m five months’ pregnant. But our situation ultimately will ask everyone to embrace the gamut of human possibility and to define for themselves what is normal.

＊原文連結：http://www.advocate.com/exclusive_detail.asp?id=52947&page=1

我不難過

昨天在捷運聽到「愛到了盡頭，是非對錯就讓它隨風，忘了所有，過得比你快活。」這一句，眼眶不爭氣地泛紅起來。
是啊，這不算什麼，只是為什麼眼淚會留我也不懂。
只知道有個地方空空蕩蕩地。
你怎麼會知道我為了你掉了多少眼淚，又怎麼會知道你說你不想被我傷害，結果最後受傷的人是我。
怎麼你可以若無其事地說出你不知道該選誰？
其實你只是太愛自己而沒有看見別人。其實我應該知道卻假裝自己不曉得。



又站在你家的門口 我們重複沉默
這樣子單方面的守候 還能多久

終於你開口向我訴說她有多溫柔
雖然你還握著我的手 但我已不在 你心中

我真的懂 你不是喜新厭舊
是我沒有 陪在你身邊當你寂寞時候
別再看著我說著你愛過 別太傷痛
我不難過 這不算什麼 只是為什麼眼淚會流我也不懂

就讓我走 讓我開始享受自由
回憶很多 你的影子也會充滿我生活
我並不懦弱 你比誰都懂
雖然寂寞 這會是我 最後的寬容

終於你開口向我訴說她有多溫柔
雖然你還握著我的手 但我已不在 你心中

我真的懂 你不是喜新厭舊
是我沒有 陪在你身邊當你寂寞時候
別再看著我說著你愛過 別太傷痛
我不難過 這不算什麼 只是為什麼眼淚會流我也不懂

就讓我走 讓我開始享受自由
回憶很多 你的影子也會充滿我生活
我並不懦弱 你比誰都懂
雖然寂寞 這會是我 最後的寬容

抱緊我 再抱緊我
這一份感動 請你讓我留在胸口
別再說 是你的錯
愛到了盡頭 是非對錯就讓它隨風
忘了所有 過得比你快活

我真的懂 你不是喜新厭舊
是我沒有 陪在你身邊當你寂寞時候
別再看著我說著你愛過 別太傷痛
我不難過 這不算什麼 只是為什麼眼淚會流我也不懂

不要再說 或許這是最好的結果
現在分手 總好過你不愛我一拖再拖
鬆開你的手 離開你左右
我向前走 這會是我 成長的解脫